showering rhyll

we are only 10 days away from the big wedding day and preparations are in FULL swing, i feel like i'm working on 3 weddings :) 

last saturday i threw a little shower for my sister to be. i took lots of pictures of the details while setting up and then i was toto busy enjoying the party to do much else. haha. 

VGs donuts and sister's cinnamon bread

yay for parties and weddings!

april daily

1: deer spotting on my walk 2: mighty love 3: crafting 4: hurry up baby k 5: lax 6: date with shay 7: vampire diaries #teamdamon 8: fierce 9: bowl full of flowers 10: dental visit 11: trying on bridesmaid dresses 12: guru date 13: dots and strips to bunch at communal 14: reading material 15: foggy Y 16: babysitting 17: bridal shower invites 18: avocado toast changed my life 19: packing up 20: out of graham canyon 21: started alias 22: travels 23: snugs 24: more snugs 25: rolls 26: fake sad 27: shakes 28: sunday drive 29: soup kitchen 30: mixed feeling

an apology

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i've become a pretty firm believer in faking it until you make it, but ive also come to learn you can't always make it. you can only play your part. you cannot make someone see it your way, say they are sorry, or change their behavior. you can't make anyone do anything.

you can, on your own, practice acceptance.

this is me learning to accept.

trying to accept:
 what i cannot change
the mistakes i've made
the closure i don't have
 the apologies i never got

and trying to do better.

this weekend

so it's back to packin, but this time i'm more happy about it :) 

i'll be packing up a storm this weekend so i can high tail it out of here on monday to see alyssa & her new baby girl. i've been stocking up on plane reading material.

then jordan will be doing the heavy lifting while i'm away in WA. thanks jray. 

here's a few things for your friday

+ super cool project called dear photograph

+ seriously funny ad campaign for kmart

+ changing the way we see ourselves. real beauty by dove

surprises and sandygrams

another good old fashioned back-post. from the storm week. (go ahead and ignore)

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a few nights before sandy. i can't remember now but this was lincoln center blanketted in a fresh sheet of snow. it was eery. sandy took so many of us by surprise.

here's the week of sandy in iphone pictures in the terribly wrong order because i'm too tired to fix them. my mom, sister, and niece were coming for a long weekend, but got stuck for 9 days instead. this brought us lots of surprises... and sorrows (sandy damage + barely making it to my uncle's funeral + missing halloween + trapped a studio with 5 people) but we made the best of it and had a blast.

sky at american girl

having a city halloween with a make shift costume (she'd made an incredible milk carton costume and her best friend at home was going to be the cookie... we had to make do with a cute witch)

 tired witches get piggy back rides from their aunts who love them.

 before sandy struck we got second row seats to see annie. so cute.

 i think sky could def hold her own against the star of the show

 stopping at my office to re-fuel 

 late night treat run

ward halloween party in which i executed with help from mom & sis in this last minute costume.

 we shake shacked of course

 what mom and i saw while keri & sky were at wicked

 eating dinner in times square

 we even ventured to economy candy and the tenement museum 

 lucky lottery winner!

 breakfast outing the morning of sandy

 sandy exploration at the boat basin

 just about everywhere

 stuck indoors. we kept our cool with tea, treats, and pride & prejudice 

 out to survey sandy damage and get fresh air

 reese's puffs help everything

enjoying time together

we did have a good time together even though it wasn't exactly how we planned, it turned into a blessing. i'm super grateful so many family & friends were able to come visit us in NYC!

oh and this article